May 28, 2010 12:15 PM

Maybe I should change the blog title!

After yesterday's posting, I guess that I am probably not walking with leukemia. But, even when I was, I was determined to not let it get me down. Now, I guess that I should be walking on air. Maybe that's a more up-to-date title to use -"One Man's Walk On Air"! I suppose that I should really feel that way and to some extent I do because I know that I can never take my life for granted anymore.

I was talking to someone after choir rehearsal tonight and we got to talking about how events in our lives can either change the path in our lives of simply be a hurdle that we must overcome on the current path that we are on. As I begin to look back on all of this, this whole journey has done a little of both. It has just been a hurdle in the sense that I can now do all the things that I did before but it has changed the path as well as I try to seek out how I am supposed to best use this experience to help others. I have committed myself to a couple of activites directed to this purpose but I feel that I have not really helped others who are suffering from this disease as much as I would like to think that I could. Who knows? As "they" say, you never really know what effect you words and/or actions have on other people.

My daughter tells me that I now have a new follower from South Africa who is looking for a bone marrow donor. It's just so hard for me to think that this blog has become so international. I have no idea who all of my followers are but I am very grateful for your support and I can only hope that in some cases my words and thoughts have provided you with support as well. I cannot speak from experience for they immediately located a donor for me, but I feel that I would have been very anxious at this point if the search continued to drag on and on. I can only pray that one is located soon so that the next step in the process can begin and the prospect of being cured comes into the picture. They can only go so far with chemo and, with some, that is enough.

We went to grandparents day for one of my granddaughters. There we met with her grandparents on her mother's side for the first time since I was diagnosed. It was somewhat emotional as they lost a daughter to leukemia 20 years ago. Graft vs host disease was the culprit. They were so happy to see that I was doing so well and I think that it was a little cathartic for them to better adjust to the loss that they suffered. It's just not right to lose a child!
They don't continue to grieve over it, but you can never forget what happened because you always think of what could have been!

And to think, when I sat down here tonight, I had no idea what I would write about...

Bob