November 10, 2010 11:55 PM

Another two year anniversary!

Two years ago today I ended my first round of chemotherapy. It didn't change much. I was still hooked to an IV pole as saline solution was continually hooked up. However, at this juncture, the questions abounded as I waited for my immune system to become almost nonexistent. Would my my disease go into remission? How long would it take before my immune system rebounded and I could go home? Would the hospital food ever get any better?

As with most things, you could only take it one step at a time. The doctors would predict nothing - only saying that I was doing very well for someone in my condition. Niceto hear - but not very definitive.

Two years later, I remember those days as though they were yesterday. It's hard to believe that it was so long ago and that I have come so far since then. I can only thank God for His healing touch and each of you for your support. Even though the situation is certainly not as intense as it once was, I am still not out of the woods yet as I await that all important two year milestone after the bone marrow transplant.

Though I really don't think of the disease much anymore, without a doubt it has made drastic changes in my life. All of our plans have been modified to account for the sinister affect that it has had on us. That's the physical part. Mentally, I still feel as though I have a huge debt to repay that I know is not required of me. It is a burden that will forever be with me as I know that the debt can never be repaid.

Each day for me is not mine anymore, it is God's as without His intervening I would not be here today. I know that modern medicine has made great strides in helping people like me overcome this disease but, nevertheless, I hear of and know of people who have not survived it.

I have been most fortunate.

I have to leard to accept that and move on...

Bob