August 9, 2009 9:30 PM

Everything's back!

It seems that I can get backinto this site in the conventional manner. I hope that each of you did not experience the problems that I had last night.

This post is a little earlier because I would like to catch a TV show at 10:00.

It was a good day - did some more painting and had some company for dinner. Once I get going on a project, I hate to stop - even for a day. So I did some painting this morning before company arrived in the afternoon.

It being Sunday, once again I think about church and how much I miss going. But, I have to rationalize it all, trading a long term gain for a short term loss. I did hear today about another leukemia patient who has a marrow donor all lined up but can't go forward because doctor's have assessed her as not yet being healthy enough to undergo the transplant. I was so fortunate - I was healthy and a donor was immediately available. For me, I realize that the whole process is serious business but not having suffered any repercussions I just kind of gloss over the severity of the situation.

Likewise, another person's health issues were brought up such that they are considering chemotherapy as a possible way to combat things. Of course, the doctors dwell on the many debilitating side effects and all the risks involved. But they never really commit to saying that there is a possibility that nothing will happen.

We are all told that there are risks, but we aren't ever told that there is a chance that you will come through it squeaky clean so to speak. I realize that that is not the most likely of situations but they should say that your response to the chemo can run the gamut from nothing to not making it. That's a wide spread to be sure - but I would have liked to have had the whole story up front. Instead you go in there fearing the worst because that's what you have been told. I know that they don't wish to elevate your expectations but I think that if you realize that you can pull through it unscathed that you'll fight all the harder. I was shocked to see that I had no problems because I thought that that was not a possible outcome.

I know that I have kind of rambled on. I went down a path that I never even considered when I started writing tonight's entry.

Talk about stream of consciousness...

Bob