February 1, 2009 10:55 PM

Bummer! Pittsburgh won! But it was certainly an exciting game.

But, you know, if that's all I have to worry about then life is good. Now of course the countdown drops to 10 days until I go into the hospital and before "Skoja" does the same. What an amazing coincidence! As some would say "there are no such things as coincidences - only God-instances!" For me as I said yesterday, it's only a waiting game. The real battle starts on the 16th when the transplant occurs.

I don't know what it's like to be on the donor side but I can imagine that it must really be exciting to be able to do something that very few of us ever get a chance to do - to save someone's life. What a thrill that must be!

From my side of the fence, as you all know, I feel fine. This is what makes it so confusing and surreal at times. Can't we stop right here and get back to a normal life once again? But, I realize that that is just a pipe dream. For me that bag of bone marrow offers a chance at rebirth and offers that opportunity to return to that "normal life" once again. Once it is infused there is no turning back... there can be no second thoughts... there is no room for doubt... the toothpaste is out of the tube and you can't put it back...

Thank God I have my faith to sustain me. I wonder what others do at times like this when they don't have that support. It's hard for me to imagine what that must be like - to literally "go it alone".

For example, it's easy to rely on the things that we have been taught for so many years - such as the 23rd Psalm. "Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me." What can be more reassuring than those words! I never thought that they would take on such significance in my life and I am sure that each of you probably feels the same way as well. But that is what our faith prepares us for. The moment something happens - we are ready for it!

Bob